When I was just 5 years old, I began to play the piano without ever being taught. It was pretty sudden ... and surprising. I couldn't understand why I suddenly understood how all of those 88 piano keys "worked together" so beautifully, but it was as clear to me as the blazing sun! But the timing of it was wonderfully suspicious. Just two weeks after I said "YES!" to Jesus, I realized that I could play the piano, by ear.  It became obvious to me and my parents that something got downloaded into my five-year-old self that represented a gift, and a calling.  But the music my fingers produced never came from black notes on a page. Music came out of my heart.  In fact, there were times when I thought only half the gift got downloaded, and the other half was still floating around in spiritual cyber-space.  I still can barely read a note, and greatly struggle with memory, learning disabilities and other issues!  God certainly has a sense of humour, because during the past 9 albums -- four of them instrumental piano CDs -- that were recorded, not a single sheet of music containing any of those confusing little black notes were even to be seen in the recording studio!  (http://www.cdbaby.com/Artist/DebbieFortnum)

What I want to encourage you with is this: when God calls you to do something, He can be trusted to equip you in just the right measure! Then, He "gifts" you with just enough weakness so that you stay humble, and have to totally depend upon Him to do what He's called you to do! Keep learning, and keep skill-building.  But don't get discouraged, don't give into fear, and don't give up! "He Who has called you is faithful...!" "He will never leave you, or forsake you!" And "He Who began a good work in you WILL complete it...!" He is SO NOT FINISHED with you yet, my friend!   Not by a long shot!  

Love, DEB :)